1. |
Raw
02:03
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I’m walking around with insaneness
I can paint the picture but you’ll faint bitch
Fuck it, allow me to illustrate the definition
Of what pain is…
Ripping achilles then making you walk on your heels
Punching the grills right out of your face then forcing em down your throat right after you’ve already ate
I told you i’d paint the picture but skipped the fact i’d be using your blood instead of actual paint
So now that you’re hearing this i guess it’s already too late
Popping your head like the last bit of tooth paste
Fucking around loosing it in a few states
Pulling the pin off grenades watching em blow then smoking the air, inhaling it deep in my lungs ya, inhaling it deep in my lungs ya, inhaling it deep in my lungs ya
Exhaling my name, while people stay calling me insane
Ya, you hear it so much you start to believe it, maybe it’s stupid like “Butt Head and Beavis”
But i’ll continue as me whatever the reason, i see it, i breathe it, feel it inside of my heart, the thing that’ll bring me far is my art nothings touching me and that’s facts motherfucker and this is only the start
Ya, how the fuck am i supposed to feel when everyone always gotta say something
Like
You’re too hard yet you’re too soft
Let’s all just agree that i’m too raw
You ain’t never seen anybody like me
You ain’t never met anybody like me
You ain’t ever gonna be anything close to the same level as my Pedigree....
PUSSY!
Oh, here we go X-el be dropping bombs
It’s like I was gone but really i’ve just begun
I swear I love this
The definition of expression to the fullest
Demons flying out of me I swear i’m fucking GOATED
Maybe it’s the Salem in my bones and i’ve been chosen
Burn me at the stake just go ahead and watch me own it
I’ll pose while i’m on fire
Flick a pic and fucking riot
Now give me your phone
So I can take the pic and upload it
To instagram, hashtag burning man
Hashtag underrated pissed off rapper
With an urgent dying plan
Someone call a fireman
My house is engulfed from all the flames
All because he turned into a demon when I called him fucking lame
See i use the doubt and hate
As fuel so i can dominate
But Still I gotta wait
For you to know my name
I’m a mystery to most
Which aggravates me, this ghost
I’m the host you should show respect before I kick you out to the freezing cold of winter
So harsh with the blisters
Pouring salt in the wounds of you and all your family members
I feel like i’m Losing my mind to the anger
Not at all a stranger to danger
So here take this picture, post it high for all the angels to hear ya
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2. |
Heartless
03:21
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(Verse 1)
Even though you feel it beating deep inside my chest
You can try and get to me but there is nothing left
This emptiness I’m feeling isn’t caused from depression
It’s the lack of a heart I need compressions
I think it’s more than clear that, that is out of question
Maybe if I died i’d be alive - resurrection
I believe it’s time for me to mention, to mention
Ye ye
(Hook)
Bitch I’m Heartless
Ya you know I’m heartless
I can’t explain the way or why I think but I know it get’s full of darkness
Ya i’m loved by darkness
Please excuse my harshness
I’m just consumed by this mother fucking heartless-ness
Ya I’m heartless
Bitch you know I’m heartless
You can feel this beat but still in me
I’m simply heartless
I just want to know where I can go without this darkness
Is there anywhere on earth where I can find this
(Verse 2)
I’m isolated in a world full of people I don’t know
I don’t even know where to call home
I’m freezing to death as the cold blows and the wind flows
I can have ten million Os but still be broke but what do I know, I’m broke
But still got hope, you want to know my secret?
Okay
I gave up everything, sacrificed it all, 7 day work week no breaks I can’t risk the chance to fall, I made myself the numbest motherfucker in room but you’d never even know would you
(Hook)
Bitch I’m Heartless
Ya you know I’m heartless
I can’t explain the way or why I think but I know it get’s full of darkness
Ya i’m loved by darkness
Please excuse my harshness
I’m just consumed by this mother fucking heartless-ness
Ya I’m heartless
Bitch you know I’m heartless
You can feel this beat but still in me
I’m simply heartless
I just want to know where I can go without this darkness
Is there anywhere on earth where I can find this
(Verse 3)
Anxiety is inside of me and it’s fighting me
The pride in me is like a lion in me
But i want you to be
Proud of me. Ya ya
That’s all that I want, i want you to see that I’m fighting as hard as I possibly can mentally
You wouldn’t know
I can’t feel my feet
But you will know
I won’t feel defeat, NA
If there’s one thing i’ve learned from the course of my life
I had to go on in set ready to fight
Writing to write every second of night
While battling demons with a pen and a knife
It may be wrong but to me it feels right
If you ever need help or advice
Please reach out, cause you are not alone in your life
(Hook)
Bitch I’m Heartless
Ya you know I’m heartless
I can’t explain the way or why I think but I know it get’s full of darkness
Ya i’m loved by darknessPlease excuse my harshness
I’m just consumed by this mother fucking heartless-ness
Ya I’m heartless
Bitch you know I’m heartless
You can feel this beat but still in me
I’m simply heartless
I just want to know where I can go without this darkness is there anywhere on earth where I can find this
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3. |
Anxiety
03:04
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(Verse 1)
Ya
I've been where you've been
Just tryna talk but you can't
Your words they are stuck as thoughts
So much to say but you're drowning
Fighting for air so hard your skin turns hot
All the sudden you start to sweat
And you get so nervous like
"Damn what's next?"
It's like I'm constantly chasing my breathe but
It's winning the race weighing heavy all over my chest
I just want to breathe
(Bridge)
Anxiety please would you leave me be
Loosen your grip I want to be free
I know how to speak so let me speak
I know how to breathe so let me breathe
I'm done with your games
What more do you want from me?
What do you want from me?
(Hook)
I guess I live with Anxiety anxiety
I feel like I live with Anxiety anxiety
I know I live with Anxiety anxiety
But I can overcome Anxiety anxiety
*Breathing*
(Verse 2)
Okay
The thing about my life is
When I think about a subject
Or something that stresses me out
I tend to get dry in the mouth
I can't spit it out
The process is painful
I'm tired, I just want to rest
But I can't turn my brain off at night
When I'm trying to sleep in the dark
When my heart is pounding in my chest
I just want to breathe
(Bridge)
Anxiety please would you leave me be
Loosen your grip I want to be free
I know how to speak so let me speak
I know how to breathe so let me breathe
I'm done with your games
What more do you want from me?
What do you want from me?
(Hook)
I guess I live with Anxiety anxiety
I feel like I live with Anxiety anxiety
I know I live with Anxiety anxiety
But I can overcome Anxiety anxiety
I guess I live with Anxiety anxiety
I feel like I live with Anxiety anxiety
I know I live with Anxiety anxiety
But I can overcome Anxiety anxiety
*Breathing*
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4. |
Pressure
03:07
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(Verse 1)
I used to be by myself
Me loaning alone in my lonesome
Still to this day there’s no issue
I had to adapt to my new situation
Still waiting for paper to multiply like it’s adding by multiplication
But sadly it ain’t...
I think it’s still out showing off on vacation
It better come into my pocket soon
My heart is racing
The rent is due
I’ll have a child soon
An I’m a rapper serving food
I’ve been quiet and rather well composed
But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared
So I guess it’s best you know
(Hook)
I’m feeling the pressure now
I’m feeling I’m feeling
The pressure now
I’m doing the best that I can but I swear to God
I’m feeling the pressure now
It’s pushing my heart to the back of my ribs
My spines pressed hard an it’s breaking my Skin
Give me some room
Maybe some booze
How bout a small or big bottle of gin
Ooo
I’m feeling the pressure now
I’m feeling I’m feeling
The pressure now
I’m doing the best that I can but I swear
I’m feeling I’m feeling like
The pressure now
I’m wiping the sweat from my brow
But can’t speak from the cotton mouth
These pressures are tearing me down
I feel the nerves
I feel the doubt
I feel like
I’m feeling
The pressure now
(Verse 2)
What if i can’t pay the rent? Then…
What if i can’t pay the debt I’ll be in
From missing the rent?
These are some thoughts on loop, In my head
It’s driving me mad
No seriously
I think I might spaz
I’m trying my hardest to keep it together
I know where my heart is it’s all for my Daughter
Now my musics even more than it was when It Started
The passion I have for these poems and raps Is like flames to a match
Set right for igniting this gas
I’m closing the gap between this one and that, Prevention of last
Hail marry the pass
Never look back
Body these beats for a bag, ye
Body these beats for a bag, ye
Body these beats for a bag, ye
(Bridge)
What started off as a dream
Is now much more a reality
With the right internal techniques
One day is someones salary
Which to me, is quite sad
But I don’t horde I’ll give back
That is my promise to you and the universe
Trust me and believe that
All these promises I made
I plan on following through
I just hate knowing I’m timed on everything that I do
So I’d be lying if I told you I was not scared
As I’m sitting here
I guess it’s best you know I’m
(Hook)
I’m feeling the pressure now
I’m feeling I’m feeling
The pressure nowhere
I’m doing the best that I can but I swear to God
I’m feeling the pressure now
It’s pushing my heart to the back of my ribs
My spines pressed hard an it’s breaking my Skin
Give me some room
Maybe some booze
How bout a small or big bottle of gin
Ooo
I’m feeling the pressure now
I’m feeling I’m feeling
The pressure now
I’m doing the best that I can but I swear
I’m feeling I’m feeling
The pressure now
I’m wiping the sweat from my brow
But can’t speak from the cotton mouth
These pressures are tearing me down
I feel the nerves
I feel the doubt
I feel like
I’m feeling
The pressure now
(Verse 3)
Yeah
My shoulders are heavy
I’m stuck in this fortress of money
Off limits to hands just visually their
I’m literally scared
But I’ve doubled my dare
My visions are clear
Yeah
This may be a mission impossible seat but you see Imposter I’m possible
So this mission i’ll beat
Regardless the feat
I’m climbing the game as we speak
An what makes me unique is I dominate anything that I breathe
I’m making my way, up the ladder of rap
I surely feel pressured
So here you can take it all back
Any doubts you have please leave in the past
Ya leave in the past
Any doubts you have please leave in the past
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5. |
Divided
03:55
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I'm feeling divided inside of myself
I'm fighting for more than just money and wealth
I write so I can help brighten
Mental health is so fragile but It can be heightened
At night when I'm sitting alone
I pick up and stare at my phone
When I already know there's nothing worth any bit of my time
Medias creating us socially blind
I... live in a world that's divided
I'm trying to guide those who are living inside it
With music and poems you know why I write it
Was given a purpose just searching to find it
I want to be great but don't call me your highness
I'd rather see kindness over praising me just for following dreams
That I pulled from my mind it was not gifted
I was never assigned just to find it
Ya, ya, ye ye ye
I've been working my ass off to be the best version of me
That I know I can be
I got faith if you don't then you better believe I'm not stopping
Until I take my last breath
Or till my last breath takes me
I'm signing my name in the book of rap so them history pages will know my name
Believe it fame or no fame you'll know the name X-el
I don't know where I'm going
Heaven or Hell
Fuck it it may not exist, oh well
But if It does I know I'ma be pissed when I arrive at the gates scorching in Hell
Only time will tell I guess
But right now I have so much I wanna rattle off of my chest
Like...
Mom, dad how you been?
It's been a minute twenty two years in the making
Honestly it's kind of fucking funny to me now
I really wish you could see this devilish smile
That was brought to my face
When I thought of one of you seeing my name
In the city where you stay
You are not invited to see X-el live on stage
Or to ever say my birth name, na
Now that I got that out of the way
On to the next problem that surfs my brain
Why is it when I feel pain and want to feel normal
They pop me with pills that take normal away
How is it so hard to get that from time to time we just need a hug
Not these street illegal but Doctor legal drugs
That's a bit fucked up ya
You really wanna know why addictions so popping
It's from all the assorted pills and chemicals they're copping
And when they can't afford it cuz insurance is a joke
They'll go to the streets for a taste of coke
And spiral down an addictive black hole
Then be treated like garbage for needing help... ugh... or dead
Just cuz they needed help
What else? Oh yah!
Alcohol!
The greatest past time of them all
Just ch-ch-ch-chug
Let's see how many we can get d-d-down
Before we t-t-t-throw'em all up
Just to realize that you need to be home so you hit the road
Oh where's the road
It's gone I'm in a hospital bed ha
I'm lucky!
Laying next to a family that wasn't so lucky
Sad to say you turned their pregnant mother to lunch meat
And to top it off she was eighteen
Bringing me to my next gripe
The pregnancy rate is higher than ever
Why do we think this is?
It's sad cuz we sexualize under aged kids
Training their minds to know what the fuck sex is
We're just fucking to fuck not loving to love
The passion is gone you don't feel anymore when you touch!
Where is the love?
Where is even the attraction?
You're just tryna get it wet when you have an erection
Now believe me, I've been there too
I see it, I want it, It's like window shopping
When I see a fine dime walk by all proud flaunting
But now see the bigger picture in this life I'm living
Which I can't afford to lose I'm already ahead winning
I don't know if you'll see it the way that I see it
Listen a few times
But I'd rather you see it than need to go deal with it first hand
That's the truth man
You don't need to be good at math
To see the division across the map
I told you on "This That"
The country we all live in's a puzzle that's been thrown away in the trash
I don't think anything'll make it better this is the greatest country ever
The Divided States Of America
It's got a nice ring to it don't it
Rest in peace to George Floyd
And every citizen that's been murdered in vein
We should be building each other up
But instead we're killing each other off like flies bugs we're insects
Twenty twenty one let's drop racists off the face of the planet
Erasing the curse
Searching a cure for this tainted earth ugh
Lastly... rest in peace to the Covid victims
I think we can all agree fuck nineteen
Suck a dick we've had enough of your virus shit
If you were a person you better believe that we'd all be stopping you out
Kicking you ribs and punching your face
Dissecting your guts by tearing them out through your mouth
Fatality style
You've pushed all our buttons
GET OVER HERE!
That's the least we can do is to violently FINISH YOU
Then cutting you up into little pieces to finish the job
Finally clearing our streets an are air which we breathe
So you can now stay one thousand feet divided from us all
X-el, yeye
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6. |
Interlude
01:20
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My life has been changing a lot
In these past months, is these past years
But I’m still sitting and writing in the dark
Time is slow, but it’s faster than light years
I’ve been fighting to find myself
Rome wasn’t built in a day
So why do I feel like I should be so much farther ahead than I am in my current state?!
That’s been the thought
Roaming around in my head that i can’t kick
For a moment I was thinking to myself, like
What’s my passion? Is it really this?
I went a month or two without writing even a dot or line on my pad of paper
Then with depression, i was falling apart
Self destructing myself as my own biggest hater
Then one day I sat and listened to every song that I had ever made
And It brought something back to my heart i was missing
I wish I could give to you what I was feeling
I felt like I could break through the ceiling
And nobody on this planet could ever conceal it
Conceal the healing i was being gifted
I felt as if I was infinite!
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7. |
Infinite
01:55
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(Intro)
You were born for a reason
Put here on this earth
Destined to get through it
While swerving along curves
I know life is hard but your brain
It makes it worse
When you find your purpose
It’s worth it
Your true self will emerge
So when you start to feel like you are limited
Baby I promise on everything you are infinite
You better never tell yourself you are worth less than anything, ya
Don’t... let the... fear of failure decide
Put... all your doubts and sadness aside
Wipe those tears... away from... your eyes
You deserve to smile, at least once in awhile
(Verse 1)
I know I can do it
And I know you got it too
We are getting through this moment this time just me and you
Whatever the weather
We are better together
United as one than separated into two
An I know I’m just tryna feel a little better ‘bout myself
Sitting here recording this working on my mental health
It’s the situation that i’ve been dealing with by myself
It’s the cards in my life i’ve been dealt but still I know i was born for a reason
(Hook Revamped)
I was born for a reason
Put here on this earth
Destined to get through it
While swerving along the curves
I know life is hard but my brain
It makes it worse
Now I found my purpose
It’s worth it!
My true self has emerged
So when I start to feel like I am limited
It’s time to promise on everything that I am infinite
I will never tell myself I am worth less than anything, ya
I won’t... let the... fear of failure decide
Put... all my doubts and sadness aside
Wipe those tears... away from... my eyes
I deserve to smile, at least once in awhile
It took me a ton of time to realize all my worth
Now I believe that I can save people with words
If I went from feeling nothing at all to feeling confident
I am living Proof you and me can be infinite
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8. |
Patience
02:42
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(Hook)
I told myself I can be greatest (Greatest)
I just need a little bit of patience (patience)
I told myself that I could be the greatest
I just need to build a bit of patience (woo)
Even when It feels slow
Like the matrix
I’ll be proud knowing that I really made this
I knew that it was all due in time
Thanks to the Patience
Yeye
(Verse 1)
It’s a virtue I know
But i’m reaping what it holds
Visions coming close
From my gravitational pull
I got the energy to make the force forfeit
Or to shoot an make it swish at half court man fuck it
I don’t even ball I’ just spitting the truth of what happens when you manifest your dreams, they come true
All you gotta do is put a bit fucking effort in it
Which shouldn’t be difficult if you are truly passionate an
Really want it
More than you can breathe
Fighting suffocation in order to succeed
Better hold your breath cuz this world can get deep
It’s like fighting enemies with sharks in the sea
So when you feel like life is to heavy for you to keep
Pushing forward please take a moment to see
An listen to these lyrics with truths that I speak
I promise it’ll be worth every moment just believe
I’m a lyricist
So when I teach
I rip into the definition of what it means to spit
Without it
How can you get your point across
You’ll literally be as illiterate as a little kid
Considerably an idiot in the face of built literate kings
So excuse me for being agitated a bit
I’m ticked
That being stated his is considered deliberately legitimate to those offended without literacy
(Hook)
I told myself I can be greatest (Greatest)
I just need a little bit of patience (patience)
I told myself that I could be the greatest
I just need to build a bit of patience (woo)
Even when It feels slow
Like the matrix
I’ll be proud knowing that I really made this
I knew that it was all due in time -
Thanks to the patience
Yeye
(Verse 2)
You don’t need a PHD to see my ADD Disorder
If I make twenty fie flip at twenty three, four hundred times, that is my percent at success, it makes sense to a quarter
But I want all four of them to finish what we started
Back in 2017 I sent X-el on this journey with
No return to senderinformation jotted down on the recipe, to more than prove tome that I would possibly succeed better at being exactly what It is I want to be
I believe if you don’t settle for anything, an just go
You can defy gravity an realities hold
You can break free
Disney tried to tell s in the musical from high school to sore and reach for the stars
You can’t seem to reach
In other words follow your dreams
Or else you’ll become stuck with not a lick of creativity
Consider yourself a pawn of chess
The opportunity is knocking but it’s useless without some strategy
(Hook)
I told myself I can be greatest (Greatest)
I just need a little bit of patience (patience)
I told myself that I could be the greatest
I just need to build a bit of patience (woo)
Even when It feels slow
Like the matrix
I’ll be proud knowing that I really made this
I knew that it was all due in time
Thanks to the patience
Yeye
(Verse 3)
When you plant a seed
You nurture it to grow
Day and night until it’s complete
The cycle growth
You just need to see
That you are the same
As every single living thing on this planet
With same potentials through the rain
Regardless of your hardships please allow yourself the time that you need to succeed and remember you should always try to be polite and
Thank, the patience
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9. |
Never Heard Of Me
02:02
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(Intro)
Wait.. Like?
(Hook)
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
Na
You ain't never heard of me
You ain't heard of me
How the hell you gonna tell me
You ain't heard of me?
Ya
You ain't heard of me!?
You ain't never heard of me!?
(What?)
(Verse 1)
Honestly it’s quite sickening to say the least
To me with my eyes i see the sculpture of a beast
Ya’ll just haven’t seen it from the view I’ve been seeing it from
I have leveled up and leveled up and leveled up again
This a game and you ain’t in it
You may not know but
Believe in me i’m winning i’m proving to me i did it every second that i’m living i’m taking breathes due to blessings trying to do the best things i can just to perfect it
(Bridge)
Without my life
Without my mind
Without my grind
What do I got?
Nothing in sight
Nothing at all
Without my passion I believe I’d fall
(Verse 2)
Which is fine with me
I’m rocking commando pro
Either way G.G
If you know you know
I’m still all guns blazing
Running through these havens with my Intervention renting out Favela inventing pieces of art they’ll show in musical museums it’s amazing I know, so VMAs behold
You get to witness X-el
And I’m painting with Gold
Yet you say you still don’t know me
It’s like you think you owe me something that you can’t loan me
I just want the respect I know I deserve
My work ethic alone is something that could be observed
I understand Respect is hard to earn
But why do I live in a world where work ethic is really hard to learn
Facts
(Hook)
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
You ain't never heard of me?
Na
You ain't never heard of me
You ain't heard of me
How the hell you gonna tell me
You ain't heard of me?
Ya
You ain't heard of me!?
You ain't never heard of me!?
(What? They still don’t me? Ugh, na its cool its cool, i like to earn things, just watch ha just watch)
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10. |
Hamster Wheel
02:36
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(Verse 1)
I'm like the Ramsay of lyrics
Few of ya'll impress me
So if you do It's quite impressing
I'll sit and dice these words shredded up
Four major painter soup give it up
I'm stirring the pot now so what?!
I'm a frenzy when angry or you think it's cool
To push or tempt me
I'll attack from every angel
Like a DBZ fight scene
Everyday I work
A fucking job that I hate, so I can get paid?
Bitch I need a fucking break!
My heads gonna blow up!
Like I know this music will!
But I hate the cycle...
Stupid fucking hamster wheel!
It's like inside I'm falling apart but making music
And dissecting each bar is the key to my heart
The key to my heart don't touch it
I'm selfish when protecting myself bitch I love it
If you aren't the same about yourself
Then I'm sorry that you aren't
Why are you still listening?
Turn it off!
If you got this far I guess you must have been gripped
At the start
So hear me out
Most these other
Quote on quote
"Artists"
Seem to be like clones of one another
You can *click*
Add to your shopping cart
They even all look alike that's a sad truth...
Where is any original thought?
If I was like you, I would probably be
"Lil X-el"
With a crazy dreaded wig so I could hide my bald spot
And add a ton of autotuney
Nonsense with no substance
As a song for you and all your dumb friends
To sit and listen too
(Break)
X-el who?
This dude doesn't even have a million dollar chain
What does he know?
Where is any photos of him and bad bitches on Instagram?
I think he's a joke
(Verse 2)
Alright, I'm back!
Sorry I was searching for someone to love
Something meaningful In fact
Then !!!
Had to go drop off a rack for my aunt
So to you I say
Adios hater bon voyage
I believe strongly in you
You will fail!
Don't allow anything to let you prevail
Wait....
Uh... fuck it!
Never mind
You wouldn't get it less I cut the tongue
Out of my mouth
To mumble it
So cheers to mumbling
You helped separate
Real from fake
Showed us who was part
Of the game and who's for dough
They just want the money
Nothing'mo as for me
I have a message and a purpose In this show
I'm, just like you and most people that you know
Difference is I'm a dedicated dream chaser
With depression up the ass which sometimes
I actually use as gas
To excel me fast !!!
Sorry was that corny...?
Sometimes I just can't tell
The way social media depicts
What's cool and considered
"Loser material"
Everyday I wanna
Speak my mind
But I'm scared
I'll be canceled next
I can feel that shiver down
My fucking spine and
My hairy chest
It's crazy to me
That our first amendment
Freedom of speech
Is being tampered with
By the internet
Week after week
Ya ya ya ya ya
Week after week
I love you
Please don't cancel me
Haha
Thank you
Bye
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11. |
Pick Me Up
03:29
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(Hook - X-el & André Norbeck)
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
Pick me up pick me up pick me up
If you knew I wouldn't be something would you be okay after all?
If it's over and I lose me, close my eyes but I lose sleep so
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
(Verse 1)
Yeye
Life is hard as it already
No need to complicate these things more
Just lay them gently
I'm just trying to be the best person
This version of me
I'm just trying to be the best person
This version of me
But i'm human so one day I know I'll fuck that up
I just need to know you'll be there by me when
The times get rough
I don't want to be the only one relying on us
If deep down you feel like you've had enough
I just need
Some more time
To get me right
To get this right
I don't give you enough of the damn credit
You deserve everything and baby you will get it
Trust me when I tell you that I love you with the deepest parts
Of my heart and I just need you with me ya, ya
(Hook - X-el & André Norbeck)
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
Pick me up pick me up pick me up
If you knew I wouldn't be something would you be okay after all?
If it's over and I lose me, close my eyes but I lose sleep so
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
(Verse 2)
Sure we have some stupid petty arguments
But we always comeback around
Again and again
That's a sign of love or lust or the toxic in us
I'd say a bit of all three haha
I know I got some problems going on in my head
Like one minute I'm happy and then the next I'm depressed
I'm a work in progress but I'm getting shit off of my chest
Thank you so much for dealing with all of it
I just need
Some more time
To get me right
To get this right
Now when I make in this music
I won't ever tell you "I told you so"
I won't amuse it
But I know along this long road it's a journey
And i may lose my grip from time to time will you hold me?
(Hook - X-el & André Norbeck)
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
Pick me up pick me up pick me up
If you knew I wouldn't be something would you be okay after all?
If it's over and I lose me, close my eyes but I lose sleep so
If I fall and I lose my will would you be the one to pick me up?
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12. |
Whoa
03:03
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(Hook)
Like Whoa whoa
I’m running the game and I’m rocking the boat like
Whoa whoa
I’m tipping this bitch and I’m flipping the flows like
Whoa whoa
I’m switching this pain for material gain
Like
Whoa whoa
I got nothing to lose I’m going ghost
(Verse 1)
I sure as fuck
Should have named myself phantom
The way i disappear and pop back on you bitches like you owe a ransom
I don’t need a reason - my motives number one
Nows my season - rip your molars from your gums
You think you’re so top tier?
Bitch, you can’t even parallel park
I swear to god when I’m pissed off
I got a pit in me when I bark (roof)
They see you but i’m here
So winnings just not in your cards
I see right through it, you don’t have at all the all spark, ya
I’m Megatron, Prime, and Bee all put into one
Are you sure this is really, really the fight that you want?
I was gifted and chosen to rip this beat
So I grabbed my needle and tore it half just to sew it together and break it again this time right over your ass
I’m done with the games I’m not playing
I’ve been gone but now i’m back raging
Also been lost but now i’m back staging
Like Bin Laden with bombed pavement
Life’s a game and i’m tryna win
Heights of fame and I got the pin
I want respect
I deserve it
In this circus game that where in, ya
The difference between me and you?
Is they see you as the jester
You stupid ass royal fool
An They see me as the Joker
Meaning I mean what i say
Like anarchy's part of are race
Here let me carve this into your brain
While I laugh and say "Why So Serious?"
Right to your face
(Hook)
Like Whoa whoa
I’m running the game and I’m rocking the boat like
Whoa whoa
I’m tipping this bitch and I’m flipping the flows like
Whoa whoa
I’m switching this pain for material gain
Like
Whoa whoa
I got nothing to lose I’m going ghost
(Verse 2)
This is all i wanted since back from day one
I may have missed a date but you won’t ever top me punk
Now i’m back and you seem to have run out of all your luck, so come here I have something, it’s a dick for you to suck, HA
I believe in me more now
Than i ever have before
Tearing all of these doors down
I see it no more like a chore
It’s more so like a blessing
One been gifted above
Or maybe it’s one that’s been ripped and torn and dragged all out
Right through the mud huh
Just like me, it’s kind of ironic you see
I’ve leveled up into a cybertronic bionicle type human being
Mathematically inclined
This rap ladder I climb
Skipping an cutting the line
Work til i break a sweat
No time to unwind
I’m just tryna find my mind in this open space call me galaxy
Alex see, I told you once
Now I told you again believe in me
We will be alright
All the way to til the end of time
Every step we take we leave behind a deeper footed legacy yeyeyeye
(Hook)
Like Whoa whoa
I’m running the game and I’m rocking the boat like
Whoa whoa
I’m tipping this bitch and I’m flipping the flows like
Whoa whoa
I’m switching this pain for material gain
Like
Whoa whoa
I got nothing to lose I’m going ghost
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13. |
Zero Limitations
03:01
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(Hook)
We got zero zero, Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Building our catalog with all this ammunition
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Moving through the system with music and much patience
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
(Verse 1)
Work a 9-5
Typical life style
Na it’s not for me
I’m tryna be as big as trees, yeye
My roots will always be what settles me to the ground
I’m seeding the foundation all around
I had to put myself first, in order to find, the purpose i’ve been searching for
Aged like wine, i only got better with time
But getting my mind focused on track, as the same ones I rhyme, was the hardest part of journeying this journey, i never had no help, so here's a shout to fam, fans and friends for mental
Wealth
You were always stopping me from doubting my damn self
When I was the one trying to put myself on the shelf
The inner enemy in me wanted to see me fail while you just wanted me to succeed
So I no longer see fans or friends ...
To me... everyone of you ARE my family
(Hook)
We got zero zero, Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Building our catalog with all this ammunition
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Moving through the system with music and much patience
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
(Verse 2)
I’m thinking outside, boxing every one of you
I’m repping Salem to Boston, Massachusetts coming through! Busting through the industry independent with no degree just heat - Fahrenheit with every word I speak
Here’s my nut, you butt hurt you don’t know of nutter butters? You’re all fluff
Soft squishy melty motherfuckers
So call me a "masshole"
Cuz i’m creating casserole and sweet potatoes outchu assholes
I’m never going back hoes
I’m just pushing forward now everyone in the back knows
That when I’m standing here this is my show
X-el is in his grind mode
On my way to exit the stage walking off the prime goat
Thanos with the mind stone
Snapping my fingers so i can watch all of these lives go - turn to dust
Kicking the rust off of the mic just so i can bust
I’m blowing the ceiling off, we are way beyond It, I don’t even see, told you we’ve got
(Hook)
We got zero zero, Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Building our catalog with all this ammunition
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
Moving through the system with music and much patience
Zero Zero, we got Zero Limitations
None of you will stop us
I promise that we will make it
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14. |
Am I Nuts
02:45
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(Verse)
I go so back in forth in my brain
It’s like I’m playing tug-a-war
I feel like I’m insane
I got spinal fluid lubing up the cord within my hands
Loser gets X-el the brand, branded on their leg through their pant’s, yeye
You’ll forever rock me, yeye
For, everyone to see, yeye
I’ve manifested everything
I put my mind to, now it’s time to get my own name on me tattooed
To symbolize who was there when I needed me time
You can criticize a boss but Indeed I feel free
You could never understand the underlying criticism I put me, through
Those who can relate scream “Me Too”
Ugh, I had enough of all these games
You can try and compete, but we ain’t even in the same lane
Better strap up and turn your system on
You’ve gotta lotta levels to achieve my young paddle wan
I’m a masta
Speak it so fire I turn these carbs into pasta
As you see my name rising on this rap rosta
You will start to understand my thoughts and realize why they bring me laughta
Not a plan B for the morning afta
No none at all, I got every egg in this basket, no room to fall
Every move I make Is delicate
Strategically placed like a delegate
Intelligent signs of pen development
I got bars for days
My streams, none are paid
I prefer to show off the legitimately real organic way
By thinking about everything that I want and by proving to you I can get it
I got it, I rock it, my intellect incredibly strong so somebody dial a medic
My genetics and esthetic are joined together by kinetic energetic energy
My feet are a size thirteen so step to a beast if
Wanna feed this feast
No peace just teeth
So take a second to breathe, you’ll need it
Cuz you’re fighting for life under water you’re drowning in the deep for stepping a foot to me
Yeye
Am I nuts? I don’t know
But Indeed I run the show
Grab my hand and we can go
Come on, come on, vámonos
Let’s go sell some hoodie for few
I hate being broke
I’m serving tables
Tryna flip them
So I, can pay my loans
I feel alone
Where is home
Damn it
Wheres my phone
Ah fuck, I just need to chill
I think I’m going crazy
The levels of stress
That I’ve been feeling lately
Got my shoulders in a knot
To the point …
I don't know if it’ll ever get better or not
I really got to slow it down before I run out of things to say
Like, Ha, Ha, Hey do you like what I did there?
This is my impression of Dre the king aye!
Okay, so this is all thats going on in my mother fucking head right now
I have to come up with over $700 in less than 2 weeks and HAHAHA I FEEL LIKE CANT DO THAT!!
Oh and I have the place to myself currently but have work in 3 hours just to continue on training
But i need to work on my music
It’s like each day that I live is pulling me apart from each one, set of my limbs
It’s hard to understand where I’m at
I just want to rap, does that really make me bad
I barely sleep now guess I’m living my dream inside of realities Realm
Even though it seems more like the start to a nightmare, I see Freddy on the street, damn I’m tweaking
Im tweaking fuck man I'm fucking tweaking
Ah ah ah ah I don't even... ahh I'm done, I'm done
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X-el Salem, Massachusetts
Alex Noe (born November 5th, 1998) better known by his alias X-el, is an independent rap / hip-hop artist straight from the burning stakes of Salem Massachusetts!
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